i will see.

The first day of classes would be the day after tomorrow. I've waited for this day for about months now. Yeah, the enthusiasm's still there and i still can feel the excitement. The preparations I've made are countless. Still, a part of me is afraid of what future is ahead of me.

here's a confession:
I've been dying to see that one person. I missed that person so much I cannot wait to even hug that person. In short I've been looking forward for that day to come. A day that would seem to be a chance to see that one person. A day of excuse for me to glance that person and eventually to talk to him, catch things up, have a very long conversation of what we did this summer, this vacation and lots of things for us to do.

My imagination just shattered into pieces. i cried. i felt so so bad. he would not be in the same school as i am. all the things im planning to do with him just became hopeless. he's too far now.

just now, all the regrets came over me. i was mortified by my own little hopes.

i forgot to tell that one person something. and i think i had all those chances. yet, i was so afraid of the risks . all those fears inside of me became a hindrance for me to shut my mouth whenever i feel like saying those words in his face.

and now i think, i can never say that phrase anymore. i had all the chances yet i wasted it.

so why am i afraid of the future that's ahead of me??
i think im afraid that i would be so uninspired of not seeing him. i would miss him so much. still i have to forget all those feelings. yeah, it seems that time cant erase a feeling this strong.. but i'll see.