i never asked for consolation.

the usual cacophony enveloped my very being

then your paroxysm of giggles made me shiver

peircing every part of me, i continued to shudder

intermittently i heard your voice like chocolate to my ears

i was fighting the mere idea of us in my restless mind

But i knew i wasnt going to win

oblivious to my distraction i was actually falling

this should stop.. i should not be swayed by my own wishes

let me escape this illusion, it would cause me anguish

i'm vulnerable, i never wanted hurt and chagrin

for the nth time wake me up from this deep slumber

to a reality in my microcosm i hope exists..

--alecx